Losing faith in the human race

Maybe it's my job, perhaps its my past experiences or what I see on the news, or perhaps it's just by observing the world and the lives and events of everyday people. Toss in the suffering, the inhumanity to man, dishonesty, injustice, the loss of values and morals and you really start to wonder how anyone can be happy. Do people really not see how the real world is? Are people really that blind to what is going on around them? Perhaps it's just me, I don't know. But I'm really starting to lose faith in the human race. 

We are each on a path that was created individually for us by God. Let's say all is good and we make all the right turns or choices that we are supposed to, that have been set for us to make. Then one day we make a left instead of a right, and the next day we make another left, and we keep making lefts instead of rights.  At what point does God change his plan for us? Does it it change? Or does he keep it the same expecting us to get back on that "right" path? 

I believe and know that my ultimate goal is to return to my Father in Heaven. I am faced with trials that I am to overcome and learn lessons from. However, there are times when these trials are loaded up upon me and I just don't know what else I am supposed to do. These trials come in the form of friends, the adversary, temptations, yearnings, distractions, and even my own personal goals. It is during these times that the human race seems to be broken the most. When we rely and need each other to help keep us strong and lift us up. 

It seems that some of the people in my life are trials, temptations and have sadly become a reason to lose faith in the human race. Now I am not saying all of them. I have my personal angels and those friends that would do anything to help me at a moments notice. I try to surround myself with people who are going to help me make those right turns instead of the lefts. But what am I supposed to do about those other people? For example, there are two people that I know that it seems like things did not go as one might have wanted, expected, thought, or whatnot. Now instead of becoming, being, and/or remaining friends, we don't talk at all. If we exchange hellos it's surprising. I have tried my hardest to remain open and friendly because that is what I would want, and do want, in return. Perhaps our expectations of each other are help to high. I admit I do that to people myself. How can we change this? Because right now, it is this cutting people off that makes me lose faith in people.

I want to believe in people. I want to restore the good and the happiness. I want to have faith in the human race. 

A check back into reality...

So I know I have been cantankerous lately; not the most enjoyable person to be around. I am trying to get through this and I know I can't do it alone. I've been gently reminded that "I need a vacation" which by the way 'thanks- it makes me feel SO much better' being told that. Anyways a good friend last night told me something that I needed to hear. He was my angel yesterday, the person who made today better for me. He didn't have to know what all was going on, but he knew something was up. This was the answer to one of my prayers and I hope you are reminded that you ARE a child of God, that he DOES love you, and he IS there for you when you need him!

God loves you; as he loves each and everyone of his creations, He gave to humans the ability to choose and with the test of life being multiple choice he knows we're bound to miss a question or two... He knows you and cares deeply, more deeply than any human being can. He knows the workings of your heart and you've felt his footprint there on days that are just damned if you live them out in any way. He was there when you were hurt he's been there every time you have cried both physically or on the inside... He is silent when you speak, his feelings tell us all we need, the Spirit guides us and prompts us at his bequest. He loves you and misses you. Things will work out just keep his name on your lips and a prayer in your heart.

a city girl's thoughts on Alaska

Alaska.... I must be crazy. I moved here in July of 2008. What was I thinking? I had never imagined myself in a place this far from civilization. I pondered the idea for a while and came to the conclusion I could do anything for one year. 365 days, 12 months....no problem!  Well my year is almost up and after lots of prayers I am staying for at least another year. We will decide the next year when the time comes. 

So what is Alaska like you may wonder. Well it is absolutely beautiful! I am amazed every day by something I see. For example, I was driving home the other day and the way the clouds were surrounding the mountains were breath-taking. I actually pulled the car over and sat there just looking at it. I'm sure the other cars thought I was probably insane! It's not only the scenery, but the hiking, fishing, camping, canoeing, kayaking, animal watching that is truly amazing. I am a true city girly girl and I am learning that I love Alaska!

Alaska does take some getting used to. Coming from the Twin Cities and moving to Wasilla, AK where the nearest actual city is Anchorage (an hour away) is a culture shock. It is safe to say that life here in Alaska is behind 2-5 years. I was walking through the store the other day and saw a pair of shoes I bought in MN 2 years ago on the rack. Craziness I tell you. There is limited entertainment depending on what you like to do. I miss the options of live music. It's there, but it's not what you may say current music or the most popular. There are the usual movie theaters, bowling, movie nights at someone's house, etc. But it just doesn't beat the clubs, restaurants, the CULTURE of a big city. I am going through with-drawl!